Pain

I dont know whats next.

Im afraid to wake up,

wake up to face the sorrow of the day.

Am I on the right path?

When you try to see everything is fine,

when you try to assume everything will be good,

but the fact is there are bigger tasks waiting for you in front.

The hill gets higher each time you climb it.

I strive hard,

but tears fell hard.

It just drop,

again,

without notifying me...

You call yourself professional education counselor,

but why are you splashing cold water on me again and again?

Perhaps, money is the only objective you work.

I shall never forget your sarcastic words and you meant face.

Anyways, I admit I have doubts.

Im finishing next year,

and whats next ?!!!

Im lost like a puppy in the jungle.

Too many people,

nobody to talk to,

no one will ever understand how I feel.

Stupid.

Pathetic.

I didnt get A for Biology...

Sorry mum, I cant be a doctor.

I didnt get A for Chemistry...

Sorry mum, I cant be a pharmacist.

I didnt get A for Physics...

Sorry mum, I cant be an engineer.

I didnt get A for Add Maths...

Again, mum.....

Im sorry for cant being an architect to serve you.

I suck in those.

Why my brain so artistic?!!!

But it cant be compared to others,

they have better ideas than me.

See, what can I do?

Got accepted to be a stewardess but asthma stopped me.

Thought of going for law but parents kept telling me how dangerous and risky it is,

what can I say? Disobey?

Oh ...

Wendy O wendy...

What can you do?

Pillows been real wet these days.

My tears being so naughty...

Whats the best for me?

I dont even know.

Friends around me ...

Doing medicine field, engineering field, while me?!

Humanities.

Yea, not professional at all.

Pathetic.

I pulled myself down.

For being dumb in secondary school.

Stupid stupid ! T.T

Failure!

Sem break is finished.

And worries start visiting again.

Hah.

Pain pain pain..

Deep down,

is breaking.....

Where is my tight hug...?

Sem 2 de Break Time II !

Sem break day Six !

Today, I dated my babeeeee! ABEE! =D My bitchy sister. To me, she is more to a sister than a friend. We scold each other and hmm... Things we do together rhyme! Woke up in the morning and went to her house to chill for a while. First station---Pavillion ! Went into Forever 21 and we were like "I want this i want this! Look at this! Eh it looks good on you babe!" These phrases were coming out most of the time. After the lunch, we proceed to Times Square and Sungei Wang and had our shopping war there. Haha! Its never enough for girls ! Its fun shopping with your high school buddy. The feelings is tooooooooooootally great ! =D Topics between us shall never stop and shall never be bored. I love her and I hate her haha.

Sem break day SEVEN!

This morning went jogging with my girl -- Eunice. This girl overslept ! She only wakes up when I reached her house in the early morning. Haha! Lazy bump! Played her piano and thank you for guiding me in the " Thousand Years" babe. Hope to catch up with you soon. You know la, you are always busy. Sighs.

Sem break day Eight !

I stayed at home haha. Sorry !

Btw, busy for my life. Will update very very soon!

Stay tune !

I chose no, its simply because I dont want, it doesnt mean I coward...

You are good, I believe, you will meet someone who better than me in the future...

Being nice to you doesnt mean I want,

showing concern simply means I care for you as the one who is lovely always,

maintain the relationship between us like now and hunt for a good one,

I promise, throughout the path, I will be there...

Sem 2 de Break Time !

Its Sem break ! Yea bye bye Sem 2! Im enjoying my holidays. At home, hanging with babes and personal space. I love it so much. The calm rhythm of life, the peace melody of the steps in life and the warm harmony in life. Its impossible to have time for myself daily, but weekly will do.

Sem break day ONE

I went Times Square with Selina and Kar Yee. Nice one. Went shopping with the girls. We went to college to collect the book vouchers in the morning. We were quite early haha. After that, Selina drove us to Times Square. Funny things kept happening on us. Haha! OMG. Shopping is such the best way to forget about worries. But it seem that those clothes are getting expensive >.< Perhaps I grew older already, cutie clothes do not suit me anymore. Haha. Had prosperity burger as lunch, it was superb! However, on the way back, everything went ........ It was black friday I remembered ! And right, we lost our way home! It was a jam at the city, so we thought of using the alternative way to go back. But heh. Too smart. We went to the wrong way, and guess what, we went Kuchai Lama! Firstly, we saw those scary names on the board like "Taman O.U.G, Bandar Abdul Razak, Petaling Jaya and Bukit Jalil..." We were like OH NO WE ARE LOST! Then we were like okay, keep going because Petaling Jaya is a familiar name to me. Then we thought we were safe already. AND THEN ......

"PUCHONG....KLANG....." these names appeared in front of our eyes, we were stunned. We are lost, officially. We were so scared. We followed the "Kepong" way, but ended up reaching I.O.I Mall which located Puchong. Oh no., Disaster. I quickly called my brother since he works at Sunway. Thank God he knew the way. And finally we reached Setapak safely. Oh Gosh. Thank you so much brother for saving us. Three xiao za bo lost their way in Kuala Lumpur, LMAO~

I love the decorations in Sungei Wang until the max !

Kar Yee, Wendy and Selina =D

Dont mess with girls, see what have we done XD

Sem break day TWO

Is my sister's birthday party ! Went to the saloon in the afternoon and wanted to rebond my hair but my heart says no. What if I cannot get back the natural hair of mine? The natural wavy hair will say goodbye to me forever? Oh no. Okay, so yea, treatment only. At night, dressed up and went to the place we booked at Bandar Sri Damansara. Woo Hoo ! Chaos. There was only a proverb which suits the atmosphere "The more the merrier!". Yea. It was such a gathering for our family members and friends. Enjoyed! And the silly girl recieved so many Smurfs products! She had a smurf moment. Happy birthday Sister !

Outfit of the day.

Sem break day THREE

Slept until 2pm! Wee ! I know, I slept too much. I hate it. Went to 1U at night. Had dinner with Uncle Bob and his family at Dragon-I ! My favourite restaurant. I enjoyed those food so much. Delicious eh! Nice one =D I ate so much ! Must work out to burn fats !

Sem break day FOUR

I wasted this day. I dated Mr television and watched it whole day ! Lifeless..

Sem break day FIVE

Hey hey ! I went ice skating! I guess I addicted to ice skating ! Went shopping with Miss Hui at first. Ate KFC *FAT* then went window shopping. Hey I love the decoration at Sunway Pyramid. So grand. Then then then... I went Ice skating ! =DDDDD I was quite scared actually because I do not know how to skate. Im a noob for ice skating. But ever since I was young, when my parents brought me to Sunway Pyramid, I always glance at the skating rink , observe those pros who skating. They skated so gracefully and how I wished I can be like one of them. When Mandy brought Christine and I to watchh High School Musical on Ice, I was amazed and I told myself I want to skate! My left leg stopped me. Irregular bone has caused me to say no due to the pain. Now Im 19, I guess my leg been through 2nd time puberty without me, when I skated yesterday, I do not feel that pain anymore. As in, its still pain, but somehow it wasnt as pain as last time anymore. I was so happy and I told myself I want to adapt to skating ! You skating, wait for me !

Tried these dress. RM79 ! So expensive. Old school style. *wink*

=D

Ice skating! We went 5 rounds along the railway of rink. Haha! It was very funny though! I enjoyed!


People skating. So enjoying.

Special area for students. I want to learn ice skating !

=DDDDD Enjoyed !

Silly face. I was so excited. Swt.

Wink!

More to come ! Stay tune !

Special Christmas Eve ♥

My family went Sabah before christmas. They went without me and I was about to celebrate christmas alone. But somehow a great buddy changed my fate ! She invited to go her church. Woo hoo! Yea babey! I been awaiting the chance for a long time. And yes, I went to Kepong Caritas Chuch. I even did countdown for the day to come. A holy day.

So did some studies at home alone in the afternoon. Played with Lucky a while and dated with the television for quite some time. Around 7pm, I got myself ready and drove to Ke Ai's house for a christmas gathering with the bunch of dudes. I finished Ai's friend rice and ate few slices of pizza. It was my breakfast + lunch + dinner + supper. Awesome want =D Thank you so much for the meal sweeties!

After that, drove Christine back to her house. Dressed up gently and went to the church with Christine's family. Thank you so much to Christine and her caring family for their kindness. Once I stepped into Christine's house, christmas atmosphere welcomed me. Christmas tree was siting at the corner of her living room, mistletoe and christmas decoration were everywhere in the living room.

Once we arrived at the church, I saw those christmas decorations! Awesome want alright! I enjoyed very much. And then !.... Toot toot toot... I met EUNICE YEE and her family. These sha poo hugged me so tightly and it seems that she couldnt believe the fact of "Oh Wendy is here!" *am i right EUNY? XD* haha! It was an awesome night. Took few instant photos and I own 6 of it! Wakaka!

Went into the church after the photo session. I sat with Aunty Susan and Ken. I was siting on the bench. Staring on the ceiling, listening to peaceful church songs, I feel so peace. And amazingly, it ward off my worries, my problems and my mind was calm and peace for a period. Sang few songs. I can seriously tell that I love those songs very very much. Among all of the songs, I love the song entitled "when a child is born" the most. I guess partially is because I play the song to often huh.

Anyways, it was my first time attending such a holy grand mass. Enjoyed the session. When the session was ended, everybody wished people around them "Merry christmas". That was cool. The power of love. People hug people, people kiss. Although I only know a few friends from Caritas, but somehow the others were very generous and friendly. I got hugs and kisses on cheek from people I do not know. Thats sweet and warm. I love it very much. THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR DEAR CHRISTINE ANNE!

Had an intimate conversation with my dearie Anne until 3am. She gave me christmas present too! And I slept with her! Haha. Sleepover is the sweetest thing between you and your dear babes. Xoxo. I love her very very much ah. I guess the friendship between us cannot be described as friendship. "Sisterhood" is a more suitable word. We been through pain and tears, we been through thick and thin. Whenever I encountered problems, she will be there for me, for sure.

It takes a long time to grow a true old friend.

Thank you for everything, Christine Anne !

There is nothing worth the wear of winning, but laughter and the love of friends.

已经很多年，

没有人让我有着这样的感觉，

每一次听到你的歌声都有冲动要流泪，

我告诉我自己不可以，

因为是不可能的，

我回避了你，

你应该不会察觉，

在你心中，

我连一丁点的位置都没有，

我没有勇气期盼，

只希望你会快乐，

哪怕是简单的快乐，

虽然我是奶茶，

不是咖啡。

A Warm Winter Solstice Festival

Time flies. Its winter solstice festival. I realized day by day things around me are changing. Perhaps I have to accept the fact of "time will not stop running" Growing up growing up! And I suck at cooking. Mummy, must teach me some skills. Your cooking are the best. Best of best, I really appreciate every single thing you do for us. I might not show it, but Im loving you every second okay! Im going to blog in Mandarin today.

冬至了，又可以吃到汤圆了。很享受搓汤圆的过程。一步一步将粉变成与家人分享的甜品。说真的，我并不知道冬至的意义，我只知道冬至是一家人一起庆祝的日子。妈妈煮了白斩鸡。虽然鸡只们很可怜，但是华人的大日子里都少不了它们不是吗？看着妈妈蹲在厨房里斩鸡的模样，我觉得妈妈，您老了。。。可惜我不会斩鸡。可想以后我的家婆一定会嫌弃我吧，一个连鸡也不会斩的女人，娶来干嘛噢？

我不敢直视妈妈，我怕我看到她的皱纹后我会忍不住流泪。她付出太多了。。。是她，将我抚育成今天的Chong Wendy ! 没有她，就没有今天的我。十八个月大开始，我就跟着妈妈上班去了。别人家的小孩子在家看卡通，在家吃午饭后才去上学；我则一大清早就跟妈妈到公司去上班。到了那儿，没有电视机，没有沙发，只有一张供我坐着的椅子。所以，听写，默写，同反义词我都会在妈妈的公司才温习，以便打发时间。小时候，公司还有一张婴儿床。婴儿床在妈妈的座位后，妈妈一边工作，就一边用脚来摇婴儿床中的小女孩睡觉，而那小女孩，就是我。。。

在这十八年里，公司搬迁了四次。每一次的搬迁我都得总新适应环境。习惯了，没有埋怨了，只有感激。就因为这样，妈妈让我学习了“adaptable"的道理。从来，只有人去适应环境，没有环境适合你的。我们不断地在长大，身边的事和物也不断地在改变更新，只有学习了这道理才能坚强。

从学院回来已经很累很累了，但是，爸妈比我更累。很乐意的帮妈妈煮汤圆。过程中妈妈不断的教导我，呵呵!妈妈曾经对我说过由于长时间在公司工作，所以她的厨艺不会很精湛。其实，您真的很好了。姑姑每一次都称赞你的厨艺的不是吗哈哈。

COOKING PROCESS !

Those ready glutinous balls are put inside the cooker. Water was boiled with pandan leaves 2.5 tea spoons of sugar were added to make the solvent taste sweeter. I threw them in actually XD

Boil it boil it !Mum says, when those glutinous balls float on the surface of water, it means it started to cook already. Tee hee.

Wendy, chef of the day =) *PIMPLES* >.< I enjoyed the process very much tee hee !

And when its cooked, its ready to eat! =D Actually... I feel like eating now ....

2011年冬至的汤圆是Wendy煮的哦，一定没有妈妈往年煮的好吃，但是在Facebook上还是Tag了很人。榜上有名的人，在我的心里也有榜。榜上无名的，并不代表我忘记了你,只是暂时没有想到你嘻嘻。下次再煮汤圆时，我要我的汤圆里有花生馅。我已经决定了在SemBreak时要学煮。现在非常时期，啊！努力吧！

PS : those family and friends who wanted to join me in making glutinous ball with peanut paste can pm me in facebook before 2012's CNY. The more the merrier ! ;)

Happy Winter Solstice Festival again! May Winter Solstice brings us warmth always.